love

“Love is the most universal,
the most tremendous and the most mystical of cosmic forces.
Love is the primal and universal psychic energy.
Love is a sacred reserve of energy;
it is like the blood of spiritual evolution.”
~ Teilhard de Chardin

a few old poems

I RISE
between winter and summer
for the promise
of a rain dance.

COME AWAY
from the worry and the noise and the hurry and the wait
into the blackest of nights
where the smallest of stars
shines her extravagant light
and you may hear this holy melody
in the silence of your own being.

SO IT IS TODAY
waking in a mist of pain
my eyes open and the mist fades slowly away.
A new day.

So it is today,
Tears that flow like sorrow
from the rarest of blooms in the forest
are wiped away

Looking up to find the light
from the shadows you appear
looking at me

Eyes soft and focused
melting this old wall that contains my heart
Naked am I

Breathe is timid –
no sound no fear not now
I am still here

Seeing you seeing me
tears are gone and there are no words
You are here

So it is today,
in the warmth of your light
I breathe in and am saturated

Today.

DOGS SLEEPING
at my feet
the sound of busy markers
on thick paper
the sniffle of a small nose
a five-year-old voice
singing kindergarten songs.

good morning

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I woke listening to cranes and then red-winged blackbirds on the ‘cranecam’ from the Platte River. Now in our backyard the bluejays are really hollering about something from way up in the trees. A chickadee comes in close to balance the screams with her gentle dee-dee dee-dee-dee. The jays are unaffected by this and continue their relentless game. Perhaps they are the protectors – issuing the alarm and badgering a threat such as an owl or hawk.

The calls have changed from a one note scream to two notes and less urgent. There are several voices and without seeing any of this I would guess the threat has passed. The 2 note call seems to be a congratulating and reinforcing of the community that formed to accomplish such a formidable task.

One voice starts and is immediately copied by several others – and now other voices I don’t recognize join the chorus, as if to celebrate also and say thanks to the jays for protecting them all… And now the voices are coming from a wide community of melodic singers as they settle back into praising the day.

on plane over utah or idaho

From Seattle to Minneapolis, on the way home again. Friday, March 22 2019

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What a beautiful few days. It still surprises me to be met so beautifully by a group of people like this. Sacred and holy ground. As strangers, holding space for one another as we walk together and pray together and find safe space with one another. We gradually allow ourselves to relax and open and become vulnerable – even to the point where we can see the divine so clearly in one another. We discover tears in our eyes and fall on our knees. To look, to gaze with open eyes into the bottomless pool of my own Beloved through the eyes of this stranger in front of me. Freely given and openly received. Aaah! Ahava.

I find myself trying to hold on to these moments, to savor them, extend them. I fold them up as we walk finally away and tuck them carefully in a secret pocket. Fingers again find this folded memory and linger – touching, squeezing more essence into it.

Yet these moments are eternal. We cannot lose them. They exist in us always! Ever ready to be found again & again – pushed and remembered and even embellished. Yet there is no possible embellishment that can reach the sacred mystery which allowed these diamond breaths in time to be created in the first.

I invite you not to keep these diamonds in your secret pocket but place them foolishly in your crown. And wear this crown not only when you are holding court, but also when you are travelling the dark and narrow shadow roads. Especially when you are washing dishes and folding laundry.